Out of Control

To no surprise I am a control freak. I can't stand losing control over my life and it seems like my life start to spiral out of control over the last couple of month.


Things that felt out of control were:

Injuring my arm
not being able to exercise because of my arm injury
changing teams at work
family events that you have to attend and don't want to
Parents forgetting about you because of these family event
The depressing weather that just didn't let up
the feeling of depression (I suffer from seasonal depression, which totally suck!)

Last week I decided it was time for me to get control of my live and start feeling better. It just seems like everything was out of control and when the depression hit I couldn't handle it anymore.

So what does a girl do to feel better----SHOPPING THERAPY!!! And I shopped; I shopped until my bank account was bled dry. I took my friend with me and she helped me splurge on myself (which I don't do to often). I purchased new furniture, cleaning supplies, clothing, shoes and anything that seemed like it would be fun or nice to have. It was almost like I needed to be out of control with my spending to get back in control of my life.

I also turned down dinner invitations because all I wanted to do was go home and work in my garden or sit on my patio and read. I decided I was going to do what made me happy and I did. I probably hurt some feeling along the way but I needed to regroup. And now I'm better. I was up this morning ready to watch Grey's Anatomy and clean house....ok I did watch Grey's Anatomy and now I'm playing on the computer....seriously, I'm shutting down and going to get this nasty house clean.

Have a happy Easter!!!!!